Filed under: What makes me upset ):
Hello world, I’m blogging from my phone now ((: first time! Long time no blog, and there are many things going on in my life the past few weeks.
1. Got an iPhone! Like super excited because finally can play all those games and stuffs. But in the end i didn’t play much on my phone… It’s the internet surfing that is super useful for me. (:
2. Sean got enlisted to ns a few days ago. I used to mock at girlfriends who count down to the book out dates and post all those things on facebook but now it’s my turn lor ): karma. so sad. It’s like a big part of my life suddenly go missing. Used to spend almost everyday with him for the past two years, now like suddenly gone abit bu Xi guan ): but I guess it’s a very good learning opportunity for the both of us. To learn to be independent, mature, and understanding.
But then again, there is this feeling of emptiness within me when I am alone and have nothing to do, no where to go. Like now ): Thats why im blogging. Tend to blog when there’s no one out there listening to me ): and I guess it just reflects on how I had been living my life – so dependent on Sean and neglecting my friends ): and how small a role had god been playing in my life.
It’s okay still, that’s why this period is a good time for me to catch up on whatever I’m lacking behind.
3. Being super half hearted at work ): it’s like I really love this job and I love my kids… But somehow I am just not convinced that whatever I am doing are benefitting the kids and I won’t be learning much in the next few years. Sent my resume to arc alr but still no reply ): really feel so stuck here, can’t go forward, and no heart to stay ): now just waiting (quite impatiently) for god to show me the next step. It’s difficult waiting.
Sigh. Dont feel like smiling much recently. So bogged down by everything ):
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